Author: Elena Overfield
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Lessons I’ve Learnt This Year: Asking for Help and Not Getting It Doesn’t Mean I Wasn’t Worth Helping
There’s a particular kind of heartbreak in finally finding the courage to ask for help and then not receiving it. After struggling to access eating disorder support more than once, I’ve learnt how easily disappointment can become something much more personal: the belief that perhaps I wasn’t deserving of help in the first place. But…
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Lessons I’ve Learnt | I Don’t Have to Be Good at Something to Be Allowed to Enjoy It
I’ve spent years avoiding things I wasn’t immediately good at, convincing myself I simply didn’t enjoy them when perhaps I was actually terrified of failing. From being the shy child who hated participating to the adult who feels the need to turn everything into an achievement, perfectionism has quietly stolen experiences from me. This year,…
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Lessons I’ve Learnt | Rest Isn’t Something I Have to Earn
I’ve always been good at pushing through. Through exhaustion, injuries, difficult days and the constant feeling that I should be doing more. But when your identity becomes wrapped up in productivity, exercise and achievement, stopping can feel an awful lot like failing. This year, my body has forced me to confront something I’ve spent years…
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Lessons I’ve Learnt This Year: Having Needs Doesn’t Make Me Needy.
I’ve spent so much of my life trying to be easy to love. Easygoing, understanding, accommodating, never asking for too much and constantly worrying that having needs makes me difficult. But this year, I’ve started realising that shrinking myself to make other people comfortable doesn’t make my needs disappear. Wanting communication, consistency, reassurance or simply…
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Lessons I’ve Learnt This Year: Maybe I’m Not Afraid of Being Alone. Maybe I’m Afraid of Being Alone With Myself.
In this post, I share my reflections on journaling and emotional struggles, particularly during quiet nights alone. It’s not that I hate being alone, it’s more what happens when I’m alone. On the flip side, we all love connection, and it’s not a bad thing that we crave that; social interaction doesn’t equate to dependency.…
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Lessons I’ve Learnt This Year: I Don’t Need to Predict the Pain to Survive It.
I’ve spent years rehearsing the pain I’d feel is something bad happened in my life; yet these things never come. I am constantly bracing myself for impact, because I don’t think I’m worthy of being loved, or being cared for. Yeah, this one is a deep one!
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Lessons I’ve Learnt | Being Chosen Isn’t Proof That I’m Worth Choosing
I’ve spent so much of my life wanting to be chosen. By friends, by relationships, by people whose approval somehow became proof that I was enough. But when your self-worth depends on somebody else’s decision to stay, rejection starts to feel like evidence that there’s something wrong with you. This year, I’m learning that being…
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The Rebrand 2.0
I suppose this is the rebrand of the rebrand. Earlier this year, I said goodbye to Pepetoe. Not completely. I don’t think I ever could. Pepetoe is literally tattooed on me, after all. It was a name I created when I was younger, and it became this little corner of the internet that grew up…
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